First of all, I am a huge fan of Michael Jackson's music, from the good ole times of the J5 (I'll Be There, ABC, Dancing Machine, and every hit or non-hit in between). I loved MJ during the Thriller days, was amazed by all the hysteria and the fact that from 1983 to 1984 or a little thereafter, I noticed Michael Jackson was in the news every single day, without fail, which is incredible.
Fast forward to the trail. There are many aspects of this case which could elicit some comment or another, but for this post, I want to focus on how incredibly disloyal some people have been to MJ. From former associates, ex-employees, maids, housekeepers, it seems just about everyone that had some type of special shoulder-rubbing with MJ has come out to kiss and tell, and tell, and tell. It seems money can buy a lot of things but loyalty hasn't been one of those things. Is it because MJ is supposedly broke now, so the folks feel they can ask for a pay0ff by Mike? Or have they already been paid, even after they've signed these confidentiality agreements, which is a requirement to be employed by Michael. If you work for him, do not go to the press and tell them what you've seen while at Neverland. You sign a piece of paper swearing you won't divulge what went on. But that paper, those signatures, mean virtually nothing now that Michael is on the trial of his life. I mean, regardless of him being what 50 something and still playing with little kids, I would hate it if my so-called friends came out and willingly testified against me. It would hurt so bad I would be depressed. I would feel as if all the air is gone from my body. I would feel dead inside. I would be so angry, so wounded. And the way Mike looks these days, it seems like this may be how he feels inside. Let's say alot of the people are lying, they are disgruntled employees, or people who wanted to be around him for selfish motives but he kicked them to the curb. Well, those people want to get him back. They want to show him he isn't so powerful after all. They betray him, they testify for the defense, they give misleading statements, half-truths, just to make Michael look bad. Regardless of their motives, it's outright betrayal. It's airing the dirty laundry. It's kissing and telling and telling and telling. It's sticking a knife right inside Michael's eyeballs. I don't think any of us would want to look up and realize our family, friends, ex-friends, whomever, would hate us so bad that they want to take us out - take the life out of us, by testifying against us. And I think it's the fame factor. Because Michael is so famous, and so greatly pursued by the press, people are just eager to give folks what they want, for a little bit of cash of course. They feel proud of the former association, happy they have enough info on Mike that they can write books (as Bob Jones, one of his former associates is doing thru his book that's being released in May 2005). It makes you feel that everything you do and say is being recorded, remembered, archived, just so those things can make a grand appearance one day. When you least want it to, when you're at the height of your fame, and when those disclosures can do the most damage. I feel for Michael in terms of the disloyalty factor; and would never want to be in shoes when it comes to that. Not that he has a right to commit wrongs; all that remains to be scene via the upcoming verdict, but geesh, what does it cost for his associates to remain loyal. If not confidentiality agreements, money, what will it take??
Monday, May 30, 2005
Monday, May 16, 2005
Anything that man can do, I cannot do
Okay, this one may make some females a little miffed, but I have a confession. (These are my confessions). I believe in female's being strong, independent, and whatnot, but guess what? There are some things that females just can't do. At least it's what I'm beginning to find out. E.g., when you're at home and you are making a tuna fish sammich and you need some mayonnaise. You open the refrigerator, you are strong enough to remove the jar of mayo from the fridge. But what if you aren't strong enough to twist the cap off? And what if it doesn't always occur to you to pop the side of the cap with a butter knife, or to put the whole jar under some warm running tap water to loosen it up. Sometimes it's just easier to hand it over to a man, "Here, open this." Pop, boom, it's open, problem solved. LOL.
Another e.g., I drive an SUV and this afternoon this bad-boy humiliated me. I was low on gas, and especially because gas prices are getting lower, it's like let me go and fill up the tank. Well, I get out the car, swipe the credit card, go to remove the gas cap, and it won't budge. I twist it. I turn it. I pray. I speak in tongues. I say Abracadabra. Still won't come off. Meanwhile folks are waiting for me to hurry up and get out Lane 2 so they can get their own gas. I have a stupid look on my face. The credit card swipe is no longer any good because I've waited to long to pump. And folks are looking at me like I'm nuts.
This one lady with a car full of kids yells at me to move my car. I yell back a quick, "NO". LOL. Didn't want to get out the line just to get back in line. For some reason, even though people saw me struggling to remove the gas car, no one offered to help a sista out. My face was burning with shame. I was wondering if I could trade my car in after I got some gas. And to make matters worse, this dude drives near in a huge burgundy truck, smiling, saying hey, and waving gold chains at me.
LOL. Dang!
Anyway, long story short, the cap finally got off (and not via my weak wrists).
And I drive away knowing that as strong as women are, there are going to be some things they just cannot do. Maybe I should start lifting weights or something...maybe I should ride a bicycle from now. (NOT). Maybe I should practice twisting that cap til I hear a little snap sound, and then realize that, "Hey, I can twist off a gas cap doggonit."
Just thought I'd share that for all the feminists out here. ROFL.
Another e.g., I drive an SUV and this afternoon this bad-boy humiliated me. I was low on gas, and especially because gas prices are getting lower, it's like let me go and fill up the tank. Well, I get out the car, swipe the credit card, go to remove the gas cap, and it won't budge. I twist it. I turn it. I pray. I speak in tongues. I say Abracadabra. Still won't come off. Meanwhile folks are waiting for me to hurry up and get out Lane 2 so they can get their own gas. I have a stupid look on my face. The credit card swipe is no longer any good because I've waited to long to pump. And folks are looking at me like I'm nuts.
This one lady with a car full of kids yells at me to move my car. I yell back a quick, "NO". LOL. Didn't want to get out the line just to get back in line. For some reason, even though people saw me struggling to remove the gas car, no one offered to help a sista out. My face was burning with shame. I was wondering if I could trade my car in after I got some gas. And to make matters worse, this dude drives near in a huge burgundy truck, smiling, saying hey, and waving gold chains at me.
LOL. Dang!
Anyway, long story short, the cap finally got off (and not via my weak wrists).
And I drive away knowing that as strong as women are, there are going to be some things they just cannot do. Maybe I should start lifting weights or something...maybe I should ride a bicycle from now. (NOT). Maybe I should practice twisting that cap til I hear a little snap sound, and then realize that, "Hey, I can twist off a gas cap doggonit."
Just thought I'd share that for all the feminists out here. ROFL.
Sunday, May 15, 2005
You are not the world
It burns me up when people think that just because they wouldn't make a certain decision, then nobody else would. For e.g., as most of you know my first book (My Daughter's Boyfriend) is about a mother that has an affair with her daughter's boyfriend. And many readers, rightly so, were appalled that a young mom could betray her daughter by stepping out with her man. Yes, it is disgusting, but guess what? It happens. You may not personally consider such a betrayal, but it doesn't mean that other women won't.
There are many things that other people do that I won't do (get high on drugs, drink alcohol, hang out at the club, have sex in public places, strip, and lots more), but it doesn't mean other people don't do these things. We know this. It's elementary! It's all around us! And this is why sometimes I get very heated when people doubt my stories.
I tend to write about taboo issues, at least that's how it is for the first two books. Taboo means it's a secret, it's not something you're going around telling everyone, it's frowned upon, it's consider yucky, trifling, all the above. But people listen to me -- folks are out here every single day doing some wild things. Do you watch CNN? Read USA Today? Skim through your own local newspaper? Things are going totally nutso in society. Morality is almost non-existent. People commit acts without thinking them through, without considering the consequences. And this happens regardless of race, gender, educational, socialogical, or economic background.
For some odd reason, I discover that the things that I write about end up being an article in some magazine. I'll read real-life scenarios about my fictional books. Or, I'll go to my son's barber shop, and they always have juicy, mind-blowing, no-she-did-not, type of stuff that they're talking about. Things you'd never imagine. And after I get over the shock about who's doing what, I nod my head in agreement. And right then I am convinced that plenty of people are always willing to do what someone else is not. From putting their kids in an oven, to selling their kids for crack, to sleeping with youngsters, to raping 6-week old babies, to knowing that your husband is a tranvestite, and you still love him and want to stay with him, to a man having an affair with another woman, then he moves the woman in his house that he shares with his wife, so that the lady can have sex with his wife too.
All of these things are happening people. So, next time you read my book(s), please don't doubt. Please don't have that attitude, "Hmm, Cydney Rax wrote this improbable junk. I guess this could happen." Ain't no guessing to it. IT IS HAPPENING? Why? Because you are not the world. The world goes way beyond our own morals and thought processes, our personal interests, and temptations. I think everyone has the potential to be drawn into doing things that no one would think they'd do. We all have some little dark secret that only us and God knows about. It's just that some folks are more willing to share their secrets than others, and it proves that everyone's different, and are guided by different motivations. Think about it!! Because as hard as it is to believe, as painful as it is to imagine, it is da truth!!
There are many things that other people do that I won't do (get high on drugs, drink alcohol, hang out at the club, have sex in public places, strip, and lots more), but it doesn't mean other people don't do these things. We know this. It's elementary! It's all around us! And this is why sometimes I get very heated when people doubt my stories.
I tend to write about taboo issues, at least that's how it is for the first two books. Taboo means it's a secret, it's not something you're going around telling everyone, it's frowned upon, it's consider yucky, trifling, all the above. But people listen to me -- folks are out here every single day doing some wild things. Do you watch CNN? Read USA Today? Skim through your own local newspaper? Things are going totally nutso in society. Morality is almost non-existent. People commit acts without thinking them through, without considering the consequences. And this happens regardless of race, gender, educational, socialogical, or economic background.
For some odd reason, I discover that the things that I write about end up being an article in some magazine. I'll read real-life scenarios about my fictional books. Or, I'll go to my son's barber shop, and they always have juicy, mind-blowing, no-she-did-not, type of stuff that they're talking about. Things you'd never imagine. And after I get over the shock about who's doing what, I nod my head in agreement. And right then I am convinced that plenty of people are always willing to do what someone else is not. From putting their kids in an oven, to selling their kids for crack, to sleeping with youngsters, to raping 6-week old babies, to knowing that your husband is a tranvestite, and you still love him and want to stay with him, to a man having an affair with another woman, then he moves the woman in his house that he shares with his wife, so that the lady can have sex with his wife too.
All of these things are happening people. So, next time you read my book(s), please don't doubt. Please don't have that attitude, "Hmm, Cydney Rax wrote this improbable junk. I guess this could happen." Ain't no guessing to it. IT IS HAPPENING? Why? Because you are not the world. The world goes way beyond our own morals and thought processes, our personal interests, and temptations. I think everyone has the potential to be drawn into doing things that no one would think they'd do. We all have some little dark secret that only us and God knows about. It's just that some folks are more willing to share their secrets than others, and it proves that everyone's different, and are guided by different motivations. Think about it!! Because as hard as it is to believe, as painful as it is to imagine, it is da truth!!
Friday, May 13, 2005
Reading what people say about you on the Internet
If you are an author, you might be able to relate...do you ever Google your name, or your book title? And if you do, have you came across comments that people post about either you or your book? Yesterday, I did a search on my name in Yahoogroups and found out two book clubs had recently selected MY DAUGHTER'S BOYFRIEND as their book of the month. Yippee, yeah. That's lovely. But a little nagging voice sometimes urges me to look and see what people are saying. Sometimes Yahoogroups has public archives, so anyone and everyone can take a peek, see what's going on in these groups. I'll admit I am not brave enough to really go browsing around trying to see what folks are saying. Since becoming an author almost a year ago, I will admit it is weird to see reviews or other comments on the Internet about yourself. People say and think the most outrageous things. Sometimes you disagree with the person; like someone in England said I set back African American literature by 20 years. I was like, Oh really. Why 20 years? Why not 15? or 25? Oh even 100? It is maddening because even if you wanted to, you can't really find these people and give them a piece of your mind. You just have to take it. When you're in the public eye, you learn how to let people think whatever they think. Doesn't mean that it's true. It doesn't mean they are accurate. It just means they are expressing what they think on the limited amount of info that they have on you. We all do it. I love to talk about celebrities and I can't say I really know any...I just have thoughts about them. So we move on. We keep breathing. Because as sure as someone is out there saying whatever they feel like saying about me, I am somewhere looking at a movie, listening to a song on the radio, and thinking whatever I might be thinking about them. Ain't that a blip???
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
I love music...lots of different music
Actually I wanted to post something to this blog but nothing major came to mind. So I looked up at this window sill sitting before me, and that's where some CD jewel cases are resting. So -- bingo - music. That's always a fun thing to talk about.
Right now my eyes are resting on some of the following that's in my collection:
Ginuwine - The Life
Brian McKnight - Superhero
The Jacksons Live
Toni Braxton - More Than A Woman
This was an underrated but awesome CD. With songs produced by her hubby (whatchamacallit), I think her vocals and the melodies are outstanding. But I think this CD, like many other Arista albums, got lost somewhere in the shuffle.
Jagged Edge - Hard
Saturday Night Fever - The Original Movie Soundtrack
Michael Jackson - Off the Wall
Tee C. Royal, founder of RAWSISTAZ, gave this to me recently for my birthday. This has to be Michael's best album. I love Don't Stop Til You Get Enough. It's so good, it's spooky.
The Diary of Alicia Keys
Now you know this sista can sing. She's talented, beautiful. But do you know some people still say bad things about her. I just don't get it. If you can't recognize that Alicia has skills, you are a true hater. It doesn't make any sense...
TLC Fanmail
Will Smith - Big Willie Style
Remember Jamie Foxx is on here, talking crazy, long before he blew up. I'm really happy for Jamie though. I like the fact that he won an Oscar for Ray, but also has Booty Call on his resume. It's like that, isn't it? We have to start somewhere to get somewhere. And if we have to do Booty Call, doggonit, so be it. Very few superstars start out at the top, with choice roles, etc. So it's good to see Jamie graduate to more prominent roles, and it shows your past surely can't always predict your future. Who woulda guessed...?
Whitney Houston - The Greatest Hits
I'm kinda pissed because this CD comes with two disks. I can only find one. The one I don't want to listen to. The one with the disco version of fast songs. I prefer the slow stuff. I Will Always Love You, You Give Good Love, that kinda stuff...
Monica - The Boy Is Mine
Remember they used to play that song to death in 1999? I thought I'd go nuts. But it was a catchy little song at the time.
Mariah Carey - Charmbracelet
I don't care what anyone says, this CD rocks. There are so many excellent songs on here. But it got buried under bad publicity I guess. But I love Mariah. I love most underdogs. I like people that have a fighting spirit. Folks that defy the odds, that show us what they've got no matter how bad the critics pounce on them. Give me a survivor any day. These people are my inspiration.
The Minnie Riperton Collection
I feel sad everytime I think about this woman...dang.
Fred Hammond - Speak Those Things
Years ago, I used to review music mostly performed by gospel artists. And Fred Hammond was one of the artists that I got a chance to talk to and interview regarding his CD The Spirit of David. I was very intimidated by him -- at first. He seemed so serious. But once the conversation turned to the Lord, he warmed up a lot. I think Fred Hammond is a gift to the body of Christ. And he grew up in the same city as me, Detroit, so that makes him extra special. Detroit really knows how to pump out talented folks...
Brandy - Full Moon
Britney Spears - In the Zone (I really wish people would leave this lady alone and let her live her life).
Brian McKnight - Superhero
Paula Abdul - Greatest Hits (your eyes aren't deceiving you). I LOVED Paula back when her first 2 albums were smoking. She had mad dancing skills and I just feel she's a talented lady. I hope Corey Clark gets whatever he deserves for doing what he's done to her...
Maxwell - Now
Jennifer Lopez - This Is Me...Then
I really wish she hadn't done the Dear Ben song. That was a mistake. Anything but Dear Ben. But a lot of the other songs on the CD are truly kewl.
Ruben Studdard - Soulful
The Essential Luther Vandross
Tyrese - Only thing I can say about him is he puts on a good show in concert. And he crossed my path one day a few years ago. He was walking thru the hallway of a Foley's department store on his way to perform on a little stage set up in the men's department. I was passing thru the hallway as he and his entourage was coming. He was smiling, very friendly-like.
Stevie Wonder - Music of My Mind
The Preacher's Wife - Soundtrack
Whitney, Whitney, Whitney. I am convinced her voice is a gift; it's so pure, so untouchable. The song I Love the Lord gives me chills. And Who Would Imagine A King makes me think about Jesus Christ, the baby, and it makes me want to cry.
Commissioned - A Collection
Another talented gospel group that does the revolving-door-member thing. Oh well, at least they all can sing good.
Brandy - Afrodisiac
Another one that fell under the radar, but it is sooooooooooooo good. Probably about the best CD she's recorded. I've always wanted to see her in concert too. Maybe one day.
Toni Braxton - Secrets
Toni Braxton - The Heat
Toni is soo talented. I remember she blew the industry a way when she first came on the scene. I miss her.
Usher - Confessions
He deserved every single award he got in 2004 and 2005.
Now, this is just a few of the CD's sitting on the window sill. I am not inclined to go thru the entire collection. But these sample titles may give you an idea of what kind of music I like. I love gospel, pop, R&B, a little bit of hip-hop, mood music, sad songs, happy songs, songs that have a thumping base, songs with strong lyrics, songs that make you want to dance (even if you can't dance, like me), songs that make you reminisce about that long lost love who broke your heart and kept on stepping as if you don't exist and he just don't care...
Gulp! Okay, time to go.
:-)
That's what music does to you. Even music that you can't hear with your words, but only within your mind.
Right now my eyes are resting on some of the following that's in my collection:
Ginuwine - The Life
Brian McKnight - Superhero
The Jacksons Live
Toni Braxton - More Than A Woman
This was an underrated but awesome CD. With songs produced by her hubby (whatchamacallit), I think her vocals and the melodies are outstanding. But I think this CD, like many other Arista albums, got lost somewhere in the shuffle.
Jagged Edge - Hard
Saturday Night Fever - The Original Movie Soundtrack
Michael Jackson - Off the Wall
Tee C. Royal, founder of RAWSISTAZ, gave this to me recently for my birthday. This has to be Michael's best album. I love Don't Stop Til You Get Enough. It's so good, it's spooky.
The Diary of Alicia Keys
Now you know this sista can sing. She's talented, beautiful. But do you know some people still say bad things about her. I just don't get it. If you can't recognize that Alicia has skills, you are a true hater. It doesn't make any sense...
TLC Fanmail
Will Smith - Big Willie Style
Remember Jamie Foxx is on here, talking crazy, long before he blew up. I'm really happy for Jamie though. I like the fact that he won an Oscar for Ray, but also has Booty Call on his resume. It's like that, isn't it? We have to start somewhere to get somewhere. And if we have to do Booty Call, doggonit, so be it. Very few superstars start out at the top, with choice roles, etc. So it's good to see Jamie graduate to more prominent roles, and it shows your past surely can't always predict your future. Who woulda guessed...?
Whitney Houston - The Greatest Hits
I'm kinda pissed because this CD comes with two disks. I can only find one. The one I don't want to listen to. The one with the disco version of fast songs. I prefer the slow stuff. I Will Always Love You, You Give Good Love, that kinda stuff...
Monica - The Boy Is Mine
Remember they used to play that song to death in 1999? I thought I'd go nuts. But it was a catchy little song at the time.
Mariah Carey - Charmbracelet
I don't care what anyone says, this CD rocks. There are so many excellent songs on here. But it got buried under bad publicity I guess. But I love Mariah. I love most underdogs. I like people that have a fighting spirit. Folks that defy the odds, that show us what they've got no matter how bad the critics pounce on them. Give me a survivor any day. These people are my inspiration.
The Minnie Riperton Collection
I feel sad everytime I think about this woman...dang.
Fred Hammond - Speak Those Things
Years ago, I used to review music mostly performed by gospel artists. And Fred Hammond was one of the artists that I got a chance to talk to and interview regarding his CD The Spirit of David. I was very intimidated by him -- at first. He seemed so serious. But once the conversation turned to the Lord, he warmed up a lot. I think Fred Hammond is a gift to the body of Christ. And he grew up in the same city as me, Detroit, so that makes him extra special. Detroit really knows how to pump out talented folks...
Brandy - Full Moon
Britney Spears - In the Zone (I really wish people would leave this lady alone and let her live her life).
Brian McKnight - Superhero
Paula Abdul - Greatest Hits (your eyes aren't deceiving you). I LOVED Paula back when her first 2 albums were smoking. She had mad dancing skills and I just feel she's a talented lady. I hope Corey Clark gets whatever he deserves for doing what he's done to her...
Maxwell - Now
Jennifer Lopez - This Is Me...Then
I really wish she hadn't done the Dear Ben song. That was a mistake. Anything but Dear Ben. But a lot of the other songs on the CD are truly kewl.
Ruben Studdard - Soulful
The Essential Luther Vandross
Tyrese - Only thing I can say about him is he puts on a good show in concert. And he crossed my path one day a few years ago. He was walking thru the hallway of a Foley's department store on his way to perform on a little stage set up in the men's department. I was passing thru the hallway as he and his entourage was coming. He was smiling, very friendly-like.
Stevie Wonder - Music of My Mind
The Preacher's Wife - Soundtrack
Whitney, Whitney, Whitney. I am convinced her voice is a gift; it's so pure, so untouchable. The song I Love the Lord gives me chills. And Who Would Imagine A King makes me think about Jesus Christ, the baby, and it makes me want to cry.
Commissioned - A Collection
Another talented gospel group that does the revolving-door-member thing. Oh well, at least they all can sing good.
Brandy - Afrodisiac
Another one that fell under the radar, but it is sooooooooooooo good. Probably about the best CD she's recorded. I've always wanted to see her in concert too. Maybe one day.
Toni Braxton - Secrets
Toni Braxton - The Heat
Toni is soo talented. I remember she blew the industry a way when she first came on the scene. I miss her.
Usher - Confessions
He deserved every single award he got in 2004 and 2005.
Now, this is just a few of the CD's sitting on the window sill. I am not inclined to go thru the entire collection. But these sample titles may give you an idea of what kind of music I like. I love gospel, pop, R&B, a little bit of hip-hop, mood music, sad songs, happy songs, songs that have a thumping base, songs with strong lyrics, songs that make you want to dance (even if you can't dance, like me), songs that make you reminisce about that long lost love who broke your heart and kept on stepping as if you don't exist and he just don't care...
Gulp! Okay, time to go.
:-)
That's what music does to you. Even music that you can't hear with your words, but only within your mind.
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